So, I’m sitting here tonight, after I put my kids to bed . . . and I started having those thoughts that every so often run through my head . . . “Why am I doing this?” (And by “this,” I mean working.)
I just got back from almost 2 weeks of vacationing with my family – my husband, my four year old Landon, and my 15 month old Liam. I didn’t really have a break (from my kids) the entire time I was there, but I also barely did any work, with the exception of a few Periscopes (which was mostly only play anyways because I’m trying to figure out what I want my format to be, when to do it, etc.). So now we’re back and I had a sitter most of the day because I knew I had a lot of catching up to do . . . conference calls, catching up on social media and emails, editing some videos and pictures. Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do, but after being with my kids non-stop for two weeks, I missed them today and even sent the sitter home early because I just wanted to snuggle with them.
Fortunately, I have a business that is focused a lot on the fact that I’m a mom. Fortunately, I do not work full time. Fortunately, I love what I do . . . but as I sit here tonight, I’m trying to remind myself why my work is important. My blog is all about struggling to balance WHAT You Love with WHO You Love, but at this very moment WHO is pulling ahead big time. The struggle is real. My kids are growing up so fast and I know what I do helps moms and moms-to-be, and I know my work is part of what feeds me and keeps me passionate about life, but right now I’m having a moment where none of that seems important. I’m hoping this is post-vacation blues . . . I’m hoping I’m just having a moment . . . but I’m also hoping that maybe I’m not.
Have you ever had this moment?